As I sit here, unable to sleep, 5 days before Christmas and wondering why I haven't gotten into the magic of it all this year. I have gone through some of the motions - I have enjoyed buying gifts and seeing it through the eyes of the kids around me, but I am feeling very empty this year. That being said, I have become more aware of the amazing number of blessings I am surrounded by. And maybe that is it. I am not finding the need to decorate from roof top to basement floor, the need to spend an entire day making Christmas cookies that won't all get eaten and that I don't enjoy doing all that much! I have given myself permission to relax and not sweat the small stuff. I think having been sick so much and unable to do things has taught me that the earth doesn't shatter if there is a little dust on the furniture, or if the kitchen floor hasn't been srcrubbed in a week!! I wish I could put on perfect Norman Rockwell/Martha Stewart kind of holiday, but that is not me. Had an interesting conversation last night about politics. Always fun. I refuse to get into arguments about it - that is not what our country is supposed to be about. The beauty of our freedom is that we are allowed to have opinions and state them. I simply feel that anyone who votes straight ticket - regardless of party affiliation - is irresponsible. To say that every person who aligns themelves with a party is either 'good' or 'bad' is naive. Every apple tree is going to produce at least one bad apple!! But ultimately we agreed on the same basic principles - go figure!
I was completely lazy the past two days. Too lazy. I need to quite hiding from life and get busy. So the journey begins. That means taking control of the house, the paperwork, my self, my health, and my relationships. Here will be my ups, my downs, my daily observations, my frustrations and pet peeves, or just the craziness of a day in the life . . . . .
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